Ben Campbell needed a break from life at Wander In, the adult community where he lived in Arizona. He needed to get out of his small house, which, even though the air conditioner ran constantly, still seemed hot and stuffy. He just wanted to get out on the road, even if just for a few hours.
Summer had been unbearably hot, and the torrid temperatures still hovered over one hundred, even though September was half over. Fortunately, for Ben, his ancient car had a strong engine and an even stronger AC unit. He left the park early in the morning, heading for unassuming back roads that traversed Pinal and Pima Counties. Ben loved the isolation of these roads; the quiet yet beautiful desert landscapes and the lack of other cars. He knew he could escape the commotion that he often dealt with at home, ever since his wife Ruby passed away in January.
Ben readied his red 1980 Buick Rivera with everything he needed for the day. He made a couple of ham sandwiches, packed some cold beers in a cooler, and grabbed a box of jazz cassettes. He also brought Roscoe, the sixteen-year-old something-doodle mix he and Ruby adopted from the Mesa dog pound. Ben and Roscoe were on the road by eight in the morning.
The temperature was already in the low nineties when he made his way out of Maricopa County, avoiding interstates by taking surface streets through Chandler and Sun Lakes. He jumped onto Highway 87 and drove south, until he crossed a dry gulch, better known as the Gila River. From there, he proceeded to take smaller, less-defined roads past cotton fields and cattle farms.
Ben and Roscoe were somewhere between Ray and Dripping Springs. The temperature was now hovering near one hundred and twelve. The Buick’s AC pumped out cold air and the tape deck pumped out cool jazz. John Coltraine sang Blue Train. Ben reached into the cooler and grabbed a beer. Roscoe sat in the passenger seat and enjoyed the ride. Life was good. Life was peaceful. Mostly though, life was devoid of people. The void, though, didn’t last.
A listless figure sat on the side of the road, a hundred yards ahead. Ben couldn’t believe anyone would be out on this highway in this weather. He slowed down and stopped by the disheveled-looking man. The man looked sad. His eyes were sullen and his hair disheveled. It looked as though he’d been sitting on the side of the road for a long time. Ben opened the passenger window and yelled out. Roscoe looked on with interest.
“What in the Hell are you doing out here in this weather?”
“Ain’t your business.” the young man replied. “I’m just fine here. Leave me be.”
“Can’t do that.” Ben said.
“Why not?”
“Cause I like to drive out here from time to time, and next time I do, I don’t want to come upon what’s left of you after the coyotes finish you off.”
The young man stared at Ben and Roscoe. He couldn’t fathom the idea that someone actually cared about him. Ben continued. “Come on. Get out of the heat. I’ve got an extra sandwich and a cold beer.”
The stranger stood and approached the car. “Your dog friendly?” he asked.
“Mostly. Unless I tell him otherwise. Right now, he’s more curious. He won’t bite. Hop in.”
“Back seat, Roscoe.” Ben commanded. Roscoe jumped into the back and the stranger climbed into the front seat. Ben gave him the sandwich and a beer. They drove in silence for a few minutes. Ben, curious himself, started up a new conversation. “You lost?” he inquired.
“Nope.”
“Where are you heading?”
“Nowhere.”
“Well, I can’t take you nowhere. If you’re going somewhere, I can get you at least some ways there.”
After a couple more of minutes of silence, the young man replied, “Thanks for the food and beer. I appreciate it. You can let me out here.”
“I ain’t letting you out until you tell me what you’re doing here. Cause, by the looks of things, I’d say you’re out here to die.”
“I don’t have much to live for, so this is a good a time as any to die.”
“What’s your name, son?” Ben asked. “And why are you giving up on life?”
“Charlie. Life gave up on me. I lost my wife and son, my job, and pretty much everything that meant anything to me.”
“I’m Ben. Good to meet you, Charlie. But you listen here. You’re just a young kid. You’ve barely given life a chance. When you get as old as me, you’ll see what life offers, and I can tell you, most of its good.”
Charlie replied. “Well, that’s not how I see it. I don’t want to be here anymore, and you or no one else can make me feel otherwise.”
“So you’re just gonna sit out in the desert and fry yourself to death?” Ben asked.
Charlie replied. “That would take too long.” He reached under his shirt and brandished a small caliber pistol. “This would be quicker.” Charlie pointed the gun toward his head.
“Put that thing down.” Ben exclaimed. “You want to shoot your brains out, fine, but not in my car. I’ll let you out and you can take care of business on the road.”
Charlie slowly lowered the pistol. Ben kept driving while keeping any eye on Charlie. He felt for the young man, and in some ways, knew of his loneliness.
“You going to stop and let me out?” Charlie asked.
“Yep.” Ben replied.
The Buick kept driving down the straight and dusty road. Instead of slowing down, Ben was speeding up. The 5.7 liter V8 had power to spare, and before Charlie knew it, the car was travelling close to seventy miles per hour. Charlie didn’t know what Ben was doing, but he wanted no part of it. He pointed the gun at Ben.
“Stop the car now, or I’ll shoot.” Charlie demanded.
Ben looked straight down the road. They’d entered a small canyon. Rock formations and steep drop-offs surrounded the speeding car. With his foot stepping down harder on the accelerator, he said to Charlie, “That would be a mistake. You see, we’d both end up dead now, and I don’t think you really have it in you to kill another person.”
Charlie felt defeated. He wasn’t a killer. He just wanted to die alone. Now, this Ben guy ruined his escape plans.
Ben spoke again. “I lost my wife earlier this year. We’d been married for over fifty years. I know what it’s like to be lonely and lost. All I have left is Roscoe. But I also know that life is worth living. Don’t give up quite yet. Give it a little more time.”
Charlie was shaking. Ben saw the sad look in Charlie’s eyes.
“Give me your gun, Charlie. Today’s not your day to die.”
Charlie was in tears. He handed the pistol to Ben. Ben slowly closed the hammer and placed the gun on the floorboard. He slowed the car down to a manageable speed, drove south into Tucson, and pulled up to the Oro Valley Hospital.
“You should think about talking to someone. Maybe someone here can guide you in the right direction.” Ben said, as he stopped the car in front of the hospital.
Charlie was still crying and shaking when he climbed out of the car. In a trembling voice, he thanked Ben.
“Charlie. My name is Ben Campbell. Get the help you need. After that, the next time you’re in Mesa, go by the Wander In adult community. Look me up. I’d really like to see you again.”
“I will.” Charlie replied.
Ben reached over and closed the passenger door. Roscoe jumped back into the front seat. Charlie looked up one last time to see the old Buick driving north, back toward Mesa.